Lost stars

 On the journey of being a humankind, from the moment you were born, you're registered as a runner for life. From the beginning until the end; from live to death, there will be a never ending journey until the day your heart stop functioning. Well, it's not really a long marathon without stops in between. Many factors can make us to stop or proceed to the next level of the run of your life. Your result in the end depends on the actions and steps you take to reach the next level, different steps or actions may lead to different results. You are responsible for your own preference.

  Since young, you were taught to learn this and that, adapt what a life would be and hence make it better. Parents guide you until the level where you are able to do things on your own, they play an important role in deciding what your life would be in the future. Since young, you're taught to play your role good, do according to instructions, spoon-feeding educations and here comes the real challenge - Adulthood.

  What's so different with adulthood? Maybe for insects, it's considered as metamorphosis. Maybe for humankind, it's a transformation from everything dependent to everything independent, sounds hard for particular people but adapting yourself into this new world full of challenge is a huge challenge indeed. Everything changed the moment you leave your nest, your home, your hometown, your parents or maybe your so called 'boyfriends or girlfriends'. The phrase Live Your Life has never been so real until you started to experience it yourself after you leave.

  On the journey, you will meet a lot of people, been to a lot of places no matter how prestigious or how insignificant it is. You explore the life in front of you by yourself, find the true self of you, the inner part of you, and learn how to be a better self. On this journey, you can be inspired by people, by their personal experiences, their past stories and also all kind of comments. Meeting new people ain't that bad, you just have to adjust yourself to fit in it. Humans are inertial animal, so you just have to change yourself in order to survive. It might be hard at the start but eventually you will know what to do and how to deal with problems. Always be optimistic and inspired. Encouragements from others are good though, making a positive image for those who need.

  Sometimes, you feel lost, you don't have a direction, you're insecure, you're not sure which way to march in and continue your journey. At this moment, don't ever stop exploring, don't stop your journey because you're stuck. Take whatever way to continue your journey cause you don't know what will happen next and where the way will lead you to. A lot of people stop at this point because they scare they will fall, and once fall they consider themselves as failure and thus given up. That's really not the real way of life. Life is about testing out new things, exploring your life so you are able to find the real way that suits you the best and continue with the journey that you desired. That's the way of making it out, face the problems not frigging run away from it. Escaping will not get the problem done and sometimes it make it worse. Just work it out when you're lost, eventually you will found something that's worth all the time you spent on it.

  It's okay to have a stop when you're tired but never give up. Giving up in life means end, death. Remember why you start and why God chose you as a participant- to make you a better person. Life is like a drawing block, you are the artist and you design your masterpiece. Change to a new environment when you feel like to, be flexible, human are meant to be creative and not to live in a dull way. Be creative, you create your own life. Changing an environment will always lead you to a new way of living your life and creating yourself on who you are. Just keep that in mind.

  Always remember, stay positive, explore the life yourself and keep changing until you find the best way to live your life. Don't ever give up on life cause God trusted you. Find yourself in the journey of life, not just living like walking dead. Find yourself, get a life, change until you find the best in you.

Inspired by : J.Y. Chin

New life

  Years ago I was wondering about the years in future that I would have to do all the things by myself and live alone in either a big cage of a city or somewhat an off urban area where I conduct my own works or studies without my family and friends. Seems like the situation is just about to happen where I have to leave my nest, start a new life out there which I could really start a new chapter of my life where I write my own life on my notebook. But just before it happens, I want to say something about that life that is just around the corner to me.

  The country where I live, the education system is something like this :

Pre-school : 4-6 year old
Primary school : 7-12 year old
Secondary plus Highschool : 13-17 year old (age differs for everyone, for me it's this)

another extra part of highschool (which is consider as pre-university, there are still different path to pursue studies)

  The moment that I was back in the pre-university part, I was expecting to get a brand new life there as the result and the life from past secondary years wont be take in as a part of the pre-u session. But then I realized that I was wrong. The definition of starting a brand new life is to be in a new environment with new challenges. I met new challenges but not a new environment. Environment is truly a challenge to most of the people as people normally make decisions depends on the current situation, not always the best solution but certainly useful and help for the current situation.

  The difference between starting a new life after you're release from the jail for committed some crimes and maybe after 5 years you are release and starting a new life in university with nobody else beside you, neither family nor friends, just you alone on your own is that, coming out from jail people will automatically place u a tag of "bad guy", i mean most of the people out there, and for a university newbie it's just a place where u are there, meeting new friends and environment, adapt that situations and live yourself there (the availability of friends differs from person, don't get friendzoned)

  So for those freshmen in university or college, try to adapt the situation there and walk yourself out of the comfort zone that you used to be. Happy go lucky and have a wonderful life. Peace.

自己 是什麼樣子

人生短短 說長不長 硬要坳也就那幾十年 幸運的話勤勞保養也不過就百歲已經很不錯了。常常聽別人說要成為自己想要成為的人 做想要做的事 小時候在記事本里填寫著以後長大要做這個那個。覺得警察很帥抓壞人 所以要做做警察 覺得醫生很有愛心可以救人 所以要做醫生 覺得軍人很忠心保衛國家 所以要做軍人 覺得什麼事情只要是長大都能夠完成 但逐漸的發現 長得越大越想要挽回小時候那天真的時光 不會有人去在意你做什麼說什麼 到處都是人陪你 帶你一起成長。

  漸漸地 我長大了 老大不小的二十了。夏天尾巴秋天開頭 年末了 來臨的幾個月後就要二十一了。小時候覺得長大好好 做什麼都沒拘束 要幹嘛就幹嘛 父母不會來煩你 鬧你 問東問西；長大後離家 想念的卻是父母的嘮叨 父母在身邊 能夠與手足一起鬧 那些時光其實很短暫 趁早珍惜能夠享受的一切吧 孝道也要盡 不要子欲養而親不待。

  越是大覺得越難做人 越孤獨。中學生涯有一群打打鬧鬧的朋友 一起逃課一起鬧一起吃喝玩樂 友好的一起吃 壞的一起挺。畢業後各奔東西 你忙你的我忙我的 你去北邊的大學 我去南邊的大學 他去東邊而他西邊 也不知道下一次見面是什麼時候 雖然想念他們但不會常常聯絡 因為我們都知道彼此都在罩著彼此不管身在何處 心都是一起的。然而 面對的困難不只對外要應酬 漸漸的發覺 失去了自己。小時候說什麼做什麼的自己 不見了。

  最難的是就是成為自己喜歡的樣子 但其實很多時候 我們都不知道自己其實是什麼樣子 那才是真正的問題。偶爾會聽見別人問你 以後要做什麼 相信大多數人的反應應該是 不知道 不清楚 不曉得 。如果是在我這個年齡層還在上大學的朋友們 我是說大多數 就覺得是這樣 沒做過什麼調查  就憑感覺認為是這樣。根據自己的觀察得到的結果是 自己越來越沉默寡言 除了跟平時友好的幾個瘋子朋友之外 都不怎麼想去面對外面的人 不是因為覺得陌生什麼 就是覺得現階段還沒必要去應酬這個那個 而且讀書都忙個半死了 哪還有時間精力去外面跟陌生人打聲招呼說聲好 累都累爆了。除了表示孤獨以外 學習堅強也是必備的了 自己在外面生活不會比在家裡來的幸福。慵懶的態度也該收手了。

  寫這篇文章並不會讓自己心情變好 就是抒發的管道。抒發過程中也要找尋自己想要的是什麼 想要變成什麼樣子 然後努力去實踐 不管最後結果如何。累了就休息 好了再繼續走 找不到方向的話就思考。腦是生來用的 不是放著生鏽的。

  路還很長 還得繼續走。期待下一站 會有著什麼樣的風景 等著自己去探索。

Youtuber or not? Planning phase.

  Recently I'm just too free that anything comes into my mind somewhat turns into an idea. So recently I really addict on watching random videos on Youtube, from my favourite youtuber - Pewdiepie and also some others channels that often do tech videos as I am really into it and fond of it. Wondering if someday I got my own youtube channel (actually I owned one now) and my own subscribers, that would be fun. Well, it's still on planning phase as I have to reconsider about it and also at least need to acquire some video taking basic skills before I get all these things start, kind of exciting huh heheheh hahahah :D

  Well I don't own any quality device as I don't always take selfies and taking videos around due to don't have that kind of habit which I think I need to consider making it as habit if I really wish to start on my own youtube channel. No quality devices which are over my budget, some decent devices should be okay for this kind of project from the start.

  Devices are needed but for me I think the most important point is the basic skills of taking videos, making videos and editing it. Editing it through apple devices can easily be done by using IMovies (my thought) and some other third party apps as well. Furthermore, for better presentation skills, I've been practicing talking to myself and to the mirror as well for years (not a freak okay) for a better speaking skills and also the brave heart to speak in front of others, as well as in front of cameras. Real challenge bros.

  Apparently, everything are still in planning phase, so maybe I'll do it or I won't because it needs a lot of time and energy doing it. Dedications are needed and I need partnerships to do these stuffs. I hope I have time to deal with it. As for this blog, I will still continue to update it as long as I have time to do so. It's mostly about my life and I shared it and tell it, no matter are there people reading these.

  Experienced something and share with me and I will share any other interesting things with you guys if there is any. Peace!!

Days of future past of my life and friends

  Today is the day which the result of getting a place into local University is release. As what I've expected and predicted, shit was given from mr government as my result is not really excellent as expected. Everything comes with effort, I didn't put much effort during my school days. I don't regret for studying science stream though, I take it as a lesson, an experience.

  With a little bit of down feeling, cause im getting nothing, as well as the feeling of grateful to see my friends around getting the qualifications of getting themselves into a local U. Although some of them didn't get they wish for but still they get something at least. A pass to higher rank of education rank, it's not distinct but a chance to change your life comparing with those who are not getting a chance to attend universtiy.

  As what I've expected, so I've already applied for private University in my country too, but another state far away from my hometown. It takes around 6 hours to reach one destination from each. By train and also by bus. I've been to the university to check the campus there and also did some survey before it. Try to understand everything before i set my mind to study at that place. It is not an easy decision to make though, since I've already done with it, the offer letter is the only thing im waiting now before i proceed to the next step of my life.

  Campus life is nice ( at least now i still think it's nice before the real tortures come, ha). From my buddy who are currently studying in that uni now, efforts are paid in order to acquire a pass? Well, maybe not much effort he paid i guess haha, ooopss.

  Looking forward for my Uni life coming soon. Hope  there will be no more obstacles until the day I start studying there, I pray for the best and also I hope all my friends will all be doing good in their own way and own life, stay safe and happy studying. Proceed to the next level of studying and also the next level of life. It may be tough but face it and fight it, that's it.

  Stay strong peeps, peace out.

Just some random typing

  Write is a way that our ancestor record life and everything happened in the past. From the stone age, stone age people used to draw about everything they think they would record, but in a way of drawing. Well i guess drawing is also a way to describe the way of life and how things happen throughout the past. Books are written in order to transcript knowledge to the others. (I really used to type a long passage with a fucking boring introduction just to elaborate my article just like what i did when im writing english article during test)

  Writing a blog is freestyle right? I guess I have the right to type and say whatever i like and i prefer, in my personal own unique style. My freestyle is also a style, I'll call it jack style. Whatever haha.

  I start blogging since decades ago because I want to train my skills in typing faster and also enlarge my vocab. Time by time I'm in love with typing infront of computer without certain reason. Sometimes I just wish to type something, no matter if its meaningful or not. Seriously I dont really remember the main reason why i start blogging but then i remember, im here to type and im here to say about my life.

  I don't really update my blog every month or every few weeeks. Just when I want to say something i will be here. Just going to say some stories.

  Thug life isnt my life. Im going to find my life soon. After graduated from A level studies, I've been working for half a year as i mentioned in my previous blog post and make some comments about it, just kindly refer it if you found that is interesting, its all about COMPLAINS LOL.

  Well, its time to further my studies. I've decided to take up English language course and enrol in Uni life soon in the coming Fall. Preps have to be made before its too late. Recently Im having a really lazy life. The everyday routine is almost the same without any special event, just let me describe it in a fast way. Wake up-eat-drama-nap-dota-sleep and it repeated all over again. I guess im going to miss this kind of life in the future as I wont be having that much time to deal with all those dramas hahaha.

  To my friend, Jiat, who is going to study abroad in UK in the coming September. I hope we can do well and maintain our broship eventhough you're going to leave us for years. Anyway good luck bro and I will continuosly updating the upcoming event in the future post.

  As a friend and a bro, Jiat, asked me a good question. Everyone has his or her role in this society and between connections of people. He asked me whats the role of mine btw friends, I hardly describe who am I though, as everyone has their own personality. Lee, the big head clumsy bro, get mad easily and easy to play and chill with, just dont step on his bomb i guess. Leong, the boobs hunter, i guess you know what i mean. JC, has the lowest laughing point, can laugh at anything even its not that funny. And also some of them. So I've figured out my role among ma bros, im always making jokes that are not funny and maybe thats my role. Bruhhhh im confused zzz.

  In search of life, I will still continue to search for the role of my life btw every situations and I believe I will found it soon. And for those who are still searching for what you are, can kindly consult your friends and family to seek for it.

  Sometimes, i realised im just typing and writing a bunch of things that are really unrelated just to find an excuse to post a blog post.

  Will update the next upcoming event of my life soon, peace guys.

Forever

I am back, again. After two years since last post (or perhaps one and a half year) These days I've been working out with many things, which included my A-level studies in the town and the crush in the universe that caused a supernova or bigbang that i suggest that that IS a crush, so just let it be a crush. Not the crashing of airplanes recently and airplanes that gone MIA like #MH370 which is still a mystery about its location. But the crush of me and bunny somewhere in the conjunction.

  And finally, captain is with bunny now. The process wasn't that simple as I've been mentioning her since my last few post few years ago and definitely that's not easy. I don't write books like authors do, and i don't write poems like poets do. I write my own diary, my mood and my stories.

  She's fine, not perfect but fine. Not flawless, but that little flaws that made her such fascinating. I like the way she smile, she nod, she walk and of course her wavy hair at the end. Be original and herself, that's what she expressed. She works with her own way that people find it strange, but that's her. There's no need a change for others, either for me or others, being the way that you are, I'd love that.

  Problems will certainly arise, maybe someday in the future but we don't know. I am not a prophet that tells the future and Mayans that predict the future. I'm not. I'm just an ordinary boy with a slight depression sometimes. WE will encounters those problems together. They aren't that easy and maybe its tough, but don't ever stop by the problems. Face it and we will overcome it, that's what we'll do.

  I don't wanna lose her, I don't want to place this as a game or a gamble that I might lose everything in the end. I love my girl and I will always do.
  As a reply in the questions and also the statements, I DO, believe in forever. It will last eternal.