The Unfortunate

Disclaimer: This post has nothing to do with A Series of Unfortunate Events and Neil Patrick Harris.

As mentioned in the title, I am going to talk about part of the unfortunate in my life in this particular post.

The 'unfortunate' that I am going to mention, I can't say it is a true unfortunate but it is considered as part of the unfortunate because I believe there are more unfortunates in this world. I am truly fortunate enough to have this life, good food, good life, good education, good family everything is fine for me. Part of the unfortunate of my life is not getting much friends, especially male friends in general. I do have male friends, just less.

And also, much and enough doesn't correspond in this post. I have just the enough and fine amount of friends in term of quality, but not in terms of quantity. It's not ashamed to have less friends but the amount of peers I have is just, inadequate.

I used to be in an all boy school during my secondary years. Chances of me knowing and recognizing male friends was certainly higher. But due to some issue, I didn't survive my high school years with bunch of friends. Interpersonal relationship is complicated, I believe everyone encounter it at least once in their life. End up having my life somehow incomplete because rumor has it, you have to graduate with bunch of friends so you get a life. (meh) After high school, I entered college and currently an English Major student.  (Don't question about what am I gonna do after I graduate, save it later.)

Apparently, there is not much male friends in this particular course I am taking. The ratio of female to male students in this particular course is 8:2. Yes, you're right, 8:2 and 2 is for male, seriously. It is a situation where I didn't even imagine before. Having so many years in secondary without a girl, and it changed completely after I entered college. In my mind, I was thinking when I entered college I am gonna be a freshman and be friends with all kind of people and have a gang of bros so we can slay the monsters or discuss about games all day and all night. Also, having to stay in cyber cafes and be a cyber kinda person in my college life with bunch of others gamer boys and stuff. (YOLO to some point at least, make your life worth)

Things didn't go quite well with what I expect. I end up knowing more about cosmetics and skincare and gossips more than games. I am not saying this is not good, at least I get to learn something from the counterpart of male friends. My college mates and I don't actually hang out. A no for yumcha (high tea) as most of my college mates seem to be having their own business to mind. I am keen to stay with a smaller circle so to be honest I don't have much friends in college too. I only workout with those their personality suits me better and we can work and live better. Even we have no time for yumcha or stuff, at least I can get my work done and I feel really soothed and calm to have a few mates who are willing to work together to produce quality work for assignments. So far so good so keep it up.

This wishlist maybe weird, but one of the wish on my wishlist is to have a gang of male friends that we could hang out all time and talk about life together. Aim for the future and see things together. Life may be easier and a lot nicer with a gang of  bros with chemistry and good rapport. Nevertheless, I enjoy my current life for having what I have now. It is a lot more fortunate than some others in this enormous world with all sorts of possibilities.

I appreciate everything in my life and I hope it can be better. Well, I welcome friends to come into my life. Just make sure less drama, that will do the job. Peace.